Dictionary definition (courtesy of google) Bold - an adjective meaning a person, action or idea showing a willingness to take risks; confident and courageous. Synonyms include: intrepid, courageous, brave, unafraid, undaunted.
My interpretation - To be bold is to carry out an action that may be perceived as an intrepid exploit and you felt confident and unafraid to do it...... really?
This reflection over what the meaning of the word 'bold', is key to understanding how I made my step to #BeBoldForChange
Today, I am about to submit my application for a deputy head of sixth form role - a job and role I've wanted for many years. A step that some may perceive as bold, but l most certainly wouldn't describe myself as unafraid or 100% confident in taking.
Women are usually the gender described as nurturing, caring and emotional. That last word can be seen as damning and sexist when used to suggest we do not fit the mould, image and/or ideal of what a leader should look like. I know that I have often thought emotional sensitivity is a hinderance and a negative trait, but I've come to the realisation that it's one of the most powerful tools I have in my skill set - typically unique to womanhood.
As teachers, "the membrane between personal and professional is exceptionally thin." These words were the wake up call, the final piece of the puzzle which revealed the power behind embracing my emotions and intuitiveness to others into the leadership job that I want to do.
When I look at the majority of leaders, there appears to be an 'armour' creating distance between you and them. This makes it hard to understand, through simple observation, what it takes to get to that position - especially the emotional strength required to achieve and be successful in a leadership position. By suppressing and ignoring emotions such as feelings of being afraid, daunted or lacking bravery - we dehumanised and defeminise and remove the slant that only we as woman can bring to any role we undertake.
I don't think you can be bold without acknowledging the emotions you feel around what you do. Right now, I'm nervously excited to see where my application for this next step takes me - albeit it an intrepid exploit, it's one I'm very daunted by but I take comfort in the action I've taken which was pretty darn brave!
My message to you....
Don't allow the negative voices - inward and outward - stop your brave actions, let your brave actions silence them!