I have come to the realisation that I haven't been very nice to myself recently. If a pupil in my class had been speaking to their peers in a way I have been speaking to myself I would be having serious words with them. So as an apology to myself I have decided to write a post about my successes this half term, to celebrate the positive and not be so hard on myself.
In my first half term I have managed to:
*Learn the names of all the children in my class.
*Learn the faces of all the adults who collect them.
*Learn how to benchmark pupils.
*Survive my first parents evening.
*Give each child in my class a comment individual to them for parents evening.
*Have a full day of structured conversations (conversations with 4 parents about how we can work together to support their children).
*Be observed twice.
*Attend two courses.
*Attend a teachmeet.
*Help all the pupils in my class sew puppets.
*Teach forest school sessions.
*Learn how my school does guided reading.
*Do an assembly in front of KS1 (about 150 pupils).
*Set up a lunch time club.
*Build a relationship of trust between myself and my pupils.
*Create a display in the corridor.
*Set targets for writing and maths for all my pupils.
*Make harvest pictures with my class and talk about them in the harvest assembly.
*Not have to have a day off due to illness (thank you immune system).
I am sure I have a achieved many more little successes. Yes my successes are little, but they are still successes. I need to value what I am doing right rather than dwelling on things I need to improve. I know reflecting on my practice will help me to develop and I am striving to make myself a better teacher constantly. But being to obsessed with what I didn't do as well as I know I could have will not help me in the long run, it will make me feel like I never do anything right because nothing will ever be perfect. I need to celebrate the little things too while acknowledging the improvements I have to make.
It is my first half term, it has gone well, I will continue to get better. I will be kinder to myself.