Following a conversation with my deputy she suggested I attend the ‘I was here’ course, it’s no surprise that my original thoughts were ‘Do I really need to go on a course with people I don’t know and share my thoughts and feelings’ I’m not one for talking about my feelings and past, my goals and my dreams – I don’t have the time for one!
But as I reflect back on course I think of the people I met – I listened to their stories, I asked questions and gave my opinions. I think my life has been pretty ordinary – I have experienced things some people haven’t but I’ve not experienced things that some people have. I realised everyone had a reason for being there and wanting to explore leadership.
I read somewhere: Great leaders don’t set out to be leaders they set out to make a difference.
As I met the 10 women on the course I realised that was our connection; we all had different journeys and took different paths, we all had different qualities and were all at different stages but our end goal was the same -To make a difference.
I am starting the on the path of leadership and there are many lessons I need to learn to be a good leader: I need to listen more, I need to bite my tongue, I need to be more patient and I need to know when to say I did my best and walk away knowing there is nothing more I could have done. Yet there are many qualities I have that already make me a leader: I work hard, I give a 100%, I am committed, and I am honest and compassionate. I have the courage to try and a passion for my job.
When I told my 5 year old I was going on a course about how to be a strong confident woman she replied ‘but mummy you already are’
I look at my 5 year old; she feisty and fierce, she knows how to get what she wants, she has perfected the art of throwing a major diva strop and is ridiculously impatient yet she’s funny and smart, she is kind and thoughtful, she shows compassion and care, she works hard and tries to be the best she can be. These qualities she holds, I now realise, are down to me (as my mother always smugly reminds me during her one of her strops ‘she is exactly you’). Maybe these qualities that I see in her and love her for - I need to acknowledge, embrace and accept in myself.